It’s my life… It’s who I am

Cute, huggable, intelligent..that’s how people described me. But that’s for my physical appearance only. But do they know what’s inside me? Maybe yes, maybe no.. I don’t know if they really know me and accept me for who I am. I can’t say also that I really know myself. I’m still finding the missing pieces. They said that the world is so small but why can’t I find these pieces of me? Guess I have to face the challenges in life.

I had been raised by my parents to be an independent person. I learned to do some things on my own without needing their help (especially in my studies). Since elementary, I’m used to study on my own and I was happy because all the hardships I had done gave me a good result, I became honor student. It felt so good because I gave them happiness, at least all the sacrifices my parents had gone through paid off. I’m not used of having low grades that’s why I feel like dying if that thing happens. I’m not saying also that I have very good grades, having 83 as the lowest and 90 as the highest is enough for me as long as I don’t fail in any subject, but I’ll be very grateful if I could be included in the honor’s list. I can’t afford to disappoint my parents because for them, I’m their only hope in our family. Our financial status especially now is not stable, that’s why my parents want me to finish my studies here in the University of the Philippines (UP).

At first I thought that I wouldn’t be happy here because I heard that in UP, students experienced difficulties but it’s all worth it because this school had a high quality education. And most of the successful businessmen or politicians came from UP. Aren’t you proud of it?

Here in UP, I found new friends and faced many challenges. I can say that I had suffered much, and it’s not easy. I always cry and felt that it’s the end of my world but it’s unbelievable that I had survived these challenges. Everytime I’m in this situation, I always pray to God. He always hears my prayers. I had received also different comments from the other students, some liked me while some didn’t but I’m not worried about that because I knew I had my friends who were always beside me. I’m the kind of person who doesn’t kneel in front of them just for them to be pleased. Sorry, but I’m not like that and I can even live without them. I only said sorry if I knew that I was wrong and I had made a mistake. Even if I knew they had a wrong impression about me, I don’t care! Who are they? They're not my God… People’s first impression on me is “snobbish”. It’s because of my Spanish eyebrows. I seldom greeted them when they said, “hello”. I chose the people whom I wanted to give my smile. Those people were very lucky because I had given them my best smile, just kidding..! Some of them would say that “my smile has a price”, it’s not true. Even if you asked my friends and classmates, they will tell you that I’m like a clown who always laugh out loud and tells jokes. For short, I had sense of humor. That’s true and I’m proud of it. I’m not very friendly as what people wanted to because I really chose my friends basing not in their status or appearance but base on their personality. It takes time to know a person. Not all of my friends know me, it’s because I seldom talk about myself, I just let them discover who I am. Some people who had a chance to knew me better would told me later on that, “I thought you were snobbish but I guess I’m wrong”.. So see?..this is the common mistake of the people today because they’re judging a person directly by just having a glimpse or by just looking at you physically. Well, just think that you are mysterious and some people wanna unlock that mystery in you.